Wednesday, April 25, 2012
So I'm going to be completely honest right now. I have totally sucked in the working out/dieting this week. And I have nothing but excuses...
I'm still battling with extreme exhaustion. It's partly due to having a newborn and two preschoolers and partly due to the stupid bradycardia. It really makes it hard to workout
I have a newborn, I mean come on they take up a lot of time. Eli has been doing great at night, he doesn't eat at all at night anymore and usually sleeps from 9:30 to about 4:30 or 5:00 and I can get him to go back to sleep until about 6:00-6:30 for his first feeding. But during the day he requires a lot of attention.
So the times I do finally get him content and asleep in his bed, or swing, or car-seat (really wherever he is content) I have to decide what I'm going to do with that time (Play with the kids, eat, take a shower, clean a room, catch up on laundry, rest, or exercise) Unfortunately, exercise has been on the bottom of that list everyday this week. I did manage Monday to do the "Strength Plan A" from the new workout but that was it, and it was really amusing because Becca and Nate were trying to do it with me. I'm not sure how much of a workout I actually got because I spent a lot of the time laughing at them.
Josh has been working side jobs all week and we have barely seen him. So when he gets home the last thing I want to do is shove the baby in his arms and say, "here, take care of the kids while I workout". He needs his down time and we all like to spend time together and I don't want to miss out on that to run on the treadmill for 30 minuets.]
I've thought about getting up around 4:30 or 5:00 before everybody wakes up to exercise, but that would require extreme motivation that I only seem to have before my alarm goes off. I also risk starting a workout and Eli waking up early to eat and me having to stop in the middle of a workout, I HATE that. I know that doing half a workout is better than none but I can't stand stopping in the middle of a workout.
I hate myself for not being more motivated and just doing it no matter what. I'm not giving up though and I still have the rest of the week to kick it into high gear.
So this is me being honest and laying all my stupid, worthless excuses out there. And now that I've written them out and confessed them, there's no looking back. It's time to change and be motivated.....
So who's going to help hold me accountable?