So I'm going to be completely honest right now. I have totally sucked in the working out/dieting this week. And I have nothing but excuses...
I'm still battling with extreme exhaustion. It's partly due to having a newborn and two preschoolers and partly due to the stupid bradycardia. It really makes it hard to workout
I have a newborn, I mean come on they take up a lot of time. Eli has been doing great at night, he doesn't eat at all at night anymore and usually sleeps from 9:30 to about 4:30 or 5:00 and I can get him to go back to sleep until about 6:00-6:30 for his first feeding. But during the day he requires a lot of attention.
So the times I do finally get him content and asleep in his bed, or swing, or car-seat (really wherever he is content) I have to decide what I'm going to do with that time (Play with the kids, eat, take a shower, clean a room, catch up on laundry, rest, or exercise) Unfortunately, exercise has been on the bottom of that list everyday this week. I did manage Monday to do the "Strength Plan A" from the new workout but that was it, and it was really amusing because Becca and Nate were trying to do it with me. I'm not sure how much of a workout I actually got because I spent a lot of the time laughing at them.
Josh has been working side jobs all week and we have barely seen him. So when he gets home the last thing I want to do is shove the baby in his arms and say, "here, take care of the kids while I workout". He needs his down time and we all like to spend time together and I don't want to miss out on that to run on the treadmill for 30 minuets.]
I've thought about getting up around 4:30 or 5:00 before everybody wakes up to exercise, but that would require extreme motivation that I only seem to have before my alarm goes off. I also risk starting a workout and Eli waking up early to eat and me having to stop in the middle of a workout, I HATE that. I know that doing half a workout is better than none but I can't stand stopping in the middle of a workout.
I hate myself for not being more motivated and just doing it no matter what. I'm not giving up though and I still have the rest of the week to kick it into high gear.
So this is me being honest and laying all my stupid, worthless excuses out there. And now that I've written them out and confessed them, there's no looking back. It's time to change and be motivated.....
So who's going to help hold me accountable?
Girl, more than accountability, I think you need to take it easy on yourself!! Life with small kiddos is hard and exhausting and demanding, and there's only so much you can do. Sometimes, maybe the right thing is chilling and napping when you have a break, sometimes it may be playing with the older ones, sometimes, catching up on housework, etc. I know being healthy is important, too, but don't forget to remind yourself that you've got a newborn, life will be crazy for a while, and the world is certainly not going to end if you miss a few workouts.
ReplyDeleteHang in there.... You've doing GREAT!
I agree. You need to chill! You have been through A LOT!! Give yourself time to recover from ALL the things you have been through the past year. I totally understand about the lack of motivation and I don't have all the reasons you do :) This too shall pass... You have to give yourself time, THEN I'll hold you accountable and you can hold me accountable.
ReplyDeleteI agree... I don't have children, but sometimes I just need a break. My husband is gone so much, I just can't persuade myself to leave his side to go workout when he finally gets home. You also have to give yourself some time to recoup from sickness... don't want to make yourself sicker in the long run. Our bodies tell us when we need to rest, eat, etc., and sometimes we aren't the best listeners.
ReplyDeleteHave you thought about wearing a pedometer during the day? See how much you walk every day, and try to incorporate walks with your kids/ family. I simply wear workout clothes for like 8 hours a day, and I try to do "mini-workouts" during the day. So I don't wear myself (or my mind) out with the thought of "needing" to workout.
You are doing good girl! I know as women we try to do EVERYTHING in a 24 hour period, but it's impossible :( Do what you can, and don't beat yourself up if you don't have designated time to "workout"... you are probably working out much more than you realize :)
I am def inspired by your motivation. I know I'm exhausted at the end of the day and I don't have kids or your health issues! I am all for setting goals for yourself, but if you don't workout one day then you just don't workout. Didn't Phil Newberry say one of the most spiritual things we can do sometimes is sleep? Well to add to that its also necesary for us to function healthily. Give your yourself some down town and don't feel bad about it. I agree with Annie. You're probably burning more calories than you even think.
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