My oh my....

My oh my where has the time gone? It's been 20 days since my last post. And would you believe it's been over that since my last workout. Yikes. I wish I had some awesome excuse like illness of injury but really it just comes down to laziness lack of motivation.
I'll just be transparent here and say I just haven't felt like working out. Not even in the slightest. I wish I could say that the reason I'm updating today is because I'm ready to get back at it but that would be a complete lie I still have no motivation.
I'm tired of working by butt off (I wish literally) and not seeing ANY results. I'm tired of watching what I eat, counting calories, and resisting yummy desserts with no benefit.
So right now I'm enjoying yummy desserts, staying in bed an hour longer, and wearing my cute purple running shoes to the grocery store, and you know what? My scale hasn't budged one bit and all my clothes still fit so you can probably see my frustration.
I'm the same size no matter what I eat or how hard I work out. So why starve myself and work my butt off when I can eat what I want and be lazy and look the same?
Don't get me wrong, I plan to start back eventually. I enjoy working out most days, and I really have found a love for running and want to continue that but right now I'm ok with my lack of motivation (read: laziness) and am not feeling guilty about it.

So ladies, I know we've all had struggles on our weight-loss journey 

• What kept you going? 
• What's your motivation? 
• What's the one thing that you know helped you toward your goals? 

Here is one of my motivations....

Engament pic of Josh and I 2005

I want to be that girl again. And the worst part.....I thought I was fat then. *Ugh*

True Story

Lazy lazy lazy

I saw this quote yesterday and it hit me in the gut like a ton of bricks.

I have been super lazy lately. I haven't run since the Color Run and only worked out twice last week and haven't worked out at all this week. I could probably throw out a few excuses but basically it just comes down to pure laziness. *Fat girl habits die hard*

So it looks like I'll be starting the Shred over and I've got to figure out a good time for me to run.

 Because I can't run at 5:00am anymore (check out that story HERE) I'm having a hard time finding a good time to go. I just do better when I start my day with my run, its easier to go when everybody is still asleep and no one is upset that I'm leaving. Nothing makes it harder to leave than your 5 year old hanging on your leg screaming "Please, don't leave me Mommy!" She even hid all my running shoes once so I wouldn't leave. 

I've noticed I've been really grumpy since I stopped working out and that should be reason enough to get me back at it. Running is really my therapy, my time to be alone and just be me. I need that back and I have to find a designated time to do it each day. 

So all you Ladies out there: How do you do it? How do you make time for your workout and not feel guilty about leaving your family? I really struggle with that because I feel like my husband walks in the door from work and I'm running out to do my workout and taking away from our "Family Time" 

So lets hear it ladies, what's your perfect workout time? 

Goodbye funk

Well I did it :) I got up and ran yesterday morning and ran 3.5 miles. It wasn't easy and I went at my old slow pace of 12:30 but I did it.
At 2.70 miles I got this weird pain in my chest. The only way I know how to describe it is growing pains. Anybody remember getting growing pains?? I do and they hurt. It was right behind my (sorry if there are any gentleman reading this) right breast. Goodness, could you imagine me getting growing pains at 26. And in my breast of all places. Not that I think it was growing pains but if it was I hope my left breast decides to play along too so I'm not lopsided :)
Anywho I've gotten off topic. I walked for about 2 minutes until the pain went away and the finished the run and stopped at 3.5 miles and walked the rest of the way home.
It felt good to get back at it and with the Color Run less than two weeks away its a good thing I'm back at it.

Me with some yummy chocolate milk after my run.

And because I feel like I only post yucky pictures of myself after a run I thought I post some from yesterday before church

It ends now

So I'm still in my funk. Haven't exercised all week. But my funk ends today and I'm starting back hardcore tomorrow...

This quote couldn't be anymore true for me this week. I have wanted to go run. I've set my alarm every morning but for whatever reason everyday I turn it off and go back to sleep....And I regret it all day. Some of you might be asking why I don't end my funk today and go run and that is a great question and I have a great answer....

Yup. It's hunting season and I am officially a hunting widow and don't see my husband at all on Saturdays. So unless I get a sitter for my three crazy munchkins that means no running for me on Saturdays. So I will start tomorrow.

On a completely other note....
I thought I'd share a recipe with you today. My Aunt makes these awesome homemade granola bars that I am absolutely obsessed with. I got the recipe and am finally making them myself and they are making my house smell divine. So here is the very easy recipe



Ingredients:
2 cups rolled oats

3/4 cup packed brown sugar

3/4 teaspoon ground cinnamon

1 cup whole wheat flour

1/4 cup white chocolate chips (Optional: any Dried Fruit, Raisins, Craisins, Nuts, Chocolate Chips, Coconut Flakes, have fun with this!)
3/4 teaspoon salt
1/2 cup honey

1 egg, beaten

1/2 cup coconut oil (Melted! I microwave about 30 seconds until liquid, this makes it MUCH easier to work with!)
2 teaspoons vanilla extract

Directions:


STEP 1: Preheat oven to 350. Grease a 9×13 baking dish.


STEP 2: Mix together dry ingredients,

then make a well in the center

Then add the honey, beaten egg, melted coconut oil, and vanilla extract together.

Then pour wet ingredients into well of dry ingredients

and Mix well.
Pat the mixture evenly into the baking dish.


STEP 3: Bake for 30-35 minutes or until the edges are beginning to turn golden. (I did 30 because we like them softer.) Cool for 5 minutes and then cut into bars and remove from dish WHILE STILL WARM. Otherwise, you’ll have to chip it out with a chisel.

STEP 4: Eat one before calling in the crew, well, unless you don’t want any that is. Then make another batch.
 Some substitutions: You can substitute olive or peanut oil, but I HIGHLY recommend the coconut, it provides great flavor! It’s found in the oil section of the baking isle.

And there you go. A yummy, easy, healthy(ish) snack. Enjoy!

Hard Week

This week of training has been really hard. I don't know why but I've just been in a funk and can't seem to find my groove.
I was supposed to run 3 miles on Thursday and ended up getting on the 'mil at home. I hated every step I took and after a mile I decided to stop. I just wasn't feeling it and my ankle was hurting a little.
Yesterday was supposed to be a rest day but because I didn't finish the 3 miles on Friday I decided to try to run outside. I got Eli in the bed and the kids were playing with Josh so I headed out.
A few minutes into the warm up I realized I hadn't waited long enough after dinner and was regretting that bowl of red-beans and rice. I also realized I had forgotten my water bottle. So not a good start. The warm up ended and I started off. I had my phone in my bra and didn't plan on checking it for pace, time, or distance. It wasn't too long after I started that the side cramp hit. I tried to just run through it but after a while I decided it would be more beneficial for me to walk for a bit and get it under control (looking at my phone later it was just a little over a mile when I stopped)
I walked for about 5 minutes and then started back. The cramp was still there but not as bad. I finished the 3 miles and then did my cool down.
When I got done I looked at my phone and realized I did the first mile at a 10:15 pace and thats probably why I got a cramp so intense. After my walk by pace was more around 12:15 which is where I needed to be for this run because it was supposed to be a light run. I really need to work on my pace because I'm really bad about starting off too fast.

Today I'm supposed to do six 400 meter sprints with 3 minute rest in between. I'm going to try to get it in later tonight but it may not happen...I'm hoping when I do run again I'll be out of my funk


So I don't leave the blog without a picture.....
Here's me after my run, Becca wanted me to wear her nerd glasses...

How could I say no? As long as she doesn't ask me to do it in public I'm good :)