My oh my....

My oh my where has the time gone? It's been 20 days since my last post. And would you believe it's been over that since my last workout. Yikes. I wish I had some awesome excuse like illness of injury but really it just comes down to laziness lack of motivation.
I'll just be transparent here and say I just haven't felt like working out. Not even in the slightest. I wish I could say that the reason I'm updating today is because I'm ready to get back at it but that would be a complete lie I still have no motivation.
I'm tired of working by butt off (I wish literally) and not seeing ANY results. I'm tired of watching what I eat, counting calories, and resisting yummy desserts with no benefit.
So right now I'm enjoying yummy desserts, staying in bed an hour longer, and wearing my cute purple running shoes to the grocery store, and you know what? My scale hasn't budged one bit and all my clothes still fit so you can probably see my frustration.
I'm the same size no matter what I eat or how hard I work out. So why starve myself and work my butt off when I can eat what I want and be lazy and look the same?
Don't get me wrong, I plan to start back eventually. I enjoy working out most days, and I really have found a love for running and want to continue that but right now I'm ok with my lack of motivation (read: laziness) and am not feeling guilty about it.

So ladies, I know we've all had struggles on our weight-loss journey 

• What kept you going? 
• What's your motivation? 
• What's the one thing that you know helped you toward your goals? 

Here is one of my motivations....

Engament pic of Josh and I 2005

I want to be that girl again. And the worst part.....I thought I was fat then. *Ugh*

True Story

Lazy lazy lazy

I saw this quote yesterday and it hit me in the gut like a ton of bricks.

I have been super lazy lately. I haven't run since the Color Run and only worked out twice last week and haven't worked out at all this week. I could probably throw out a few excuses but basically it just comes down to pure laziness. *Fat girl habits die hard*

So it looks like I'll be starting the Shred over and I've got to figure out a good time for me to run.

 Because I can't run at 5:00am anymore (check out that story HERE) I'm having a hard time finding a good time to go. I just do better when I start my day with my run, its easier to go when everybody is still asleep and no one is upset that I'm leaving. Nothing makes it harder to leave than your 5 year old hanging on your leg screaming "Please, don't leave me Mommy!" She even hid all my running shoes once so I wouldn't leave. 

I've noticed I've been really grumpy since I stopped working out and that should be reason enough to get me back at it. Running is really my therapy, my time to be alone and just be me. I need that back and I have to find a designated time to do it each day. 

So all you Ladies out there: How do you do it? How do you make time for your workout and not feel guilty about leaving your family? I really struggle with that because I feel like my husband walks in the door from work and I'm running out to do my workout and taking away from our "Family Time" 

So lets hear it ladies, what's your perfect workout time? 

Bruises, coughs, and calves...

Bruises, coughs, and calves, that's what my excuses are made of today...

I got up this morning at 5:50 to start my run. I was just praying I'd have no calf pain this time.
The weather was perfect, cool with a nice breeze

I started off and was feeling good with the exception of my right leg due to a massive bruise

Gross right? Wednesday night after church I was talking to a friend and was walking down the aisle between the seats, I turned my head to say goodbye as I was walking away and ran right into the arm of one of the chairs. I knew I was going to have a bruise instantly. It stinks that I'm so klutzy and bruise easily.
Anyway back to my run, who knew a bruise good bother you so much during a run? It wasn't enough to make me stop mostly just annoying.
I tried to focus more on my form and make sure I was landing on the balls of my feet. Everything was going well and I wasn't experiencing any calf pain. I was however having some troubling breathing properly. I've been having some major drainage so my chest was really congested...
On my sixth run I had to run up a hill and that's when the pain started. Not the muscle pain though, the rod pain. But it was only in my right leg this time. I really wish I knew what was causing that pain and it's really weird that it was only in one leg this time. I pushed through it though and finished all ten runs without stopping. When I finished the tenth run I was pleasantly surprised to see this...

5K in 45 minutes! Woohoo! I still have a long way to go to get to a 30 minute 5K but I was shocked to see that distance with all the things I was fighting against this morning.

During my cool down I all of the sudden started smelling bacon! It was weird but as I got closer to this house...

I realized they had their door open and the whole street smelt like bacon. It made me really hungry and crave bacon
But I was good and came home and had my normal breakfast

Love this stuff and it's only 180 calories.

So next weeks training is..
5 minute warm up
run 4 minutes (?x)
walk 2 minutes(?x)
5 minute cool down
I have no idea how many times we are running/walking because the website says run 4 minutes walk 2 minutes for 40 minutes. If you divide 40 by 6 it's 6.6666666. So I'll be interested to see what we do Monday



Hey if you're on MyFitnessPal let's be friends. My user id is EBob86.

Honesty

So I'm going to be completely honest right now. I have totally sucked in the working out/dieting this week. And I have nothing but excuses...

I'm still battling with extreme exhaustion. It's partly due to having a newborn and two preschoolers and partly due to the stupid bradycardia. It really makes it hard to workout

I have a newborn, I mean come on they take up a lot of time. Eli has been doing great at night, he doesn't eat at all at night anymore and usually sleeps from 9:30 to about 4:30 or 5:00 and I can get him to go back to sleep until about 6:00-6:30 for his first feeding. But during the day he requires a lot of attention.
So the times I do finally get him content and asleep in his bed, or swing, or car-seat (really wherever he is content) I have to decide what I'm going to do with that time (Play with the kids, eat, take a shower, clean a room, catch up on laundry, rest, or exercise) Unfortunately, exercise has been on the bottom of that list everyday this week. I did manage Monday to do the "Strength Plan A" from the new workout but that was it, and it was really amusing because Becca and Nate were trying to do it with me. I'm not sure how much of a workout I actually got because I spent a lot of the time laughing at them.

Josh has been working side jobs all week and we have barely seen him. So when he gets home the last thing I want to do is shove the baby in his arms and say, "here, take care of the kids while I workout". He needs his down time and we all like to spend time together and I don't want to miss out on that to run on the treadmill for 30 minuets.]

I've thought about getting up around 4:30 or 5:00 before everybody wakes up to exercise, but that would require extreme motivation that I only seem to have before my alarm goes off. I also risk starting a workout and Eli waking up early to eat and me having to stop in the middle of a workout, I HATE that. I know that doing half a workout is better than none but I can't stand stopping in the middle of a workout.

I hate myself for not being more motivated and just doing it no matter what. I'm not giving up though and I still have the rest of the week to kick it into high gear.

So this is me being honest and laying all my stupid, worthless excuses out there. And now that I've written them out and confessed them, there's no looking back. It's time to change and be motivated.....

So who's going to help hold me accountable?